Reltionship with God

I believe that we all have different perspectives on different aspects of life. In the aspect of religion, I would just usually not make a word about my views about it. I go to church but not very often, because I don’t really feel any connection with the said greater one. I could actually call myself an atheist because of this.

 I can’t feel this feeling that others have when they are not able to go to church such s fear and guilt. I only go to church when I am forced to do so by my parents.

I believe that certain things happen because of the actions you have committed earlier and not because God has it all planned for you. If it was planned for you already, why do you have to work for it?

Sciences have nothing to do with the reason of why I don’t believe that there is a greater one. I guess it’s just because I don’t feel his presence. I sometimes even think that all these rituals done by different religions are just plain weird. Once, I wanted to feel and believe the existence of God, so I tried it and tried it then tried it again, but there was just nothing.

I have prayed before but I came to notice that the more I pray the more that I lost my faith with what I believed before. After my prayer would just come another day then I would pray again then here comes another day. Another day is said to be a gift but for me, you would still be alive tomorrow because of what you did to take care of yourself yesterday. Every day would still be the same as yesterday. Even if I don’t go to church, everything is still the same.

I still respect religion even if I am this way though, because it is what that keeps our society civilized and organized. It's not bad to be religious and it’s also not bad to be an atheist as long as you know how to respect and live in peace with other people.